8.21.2012

It's Been Rough ...

I'm in the final stages of loading up the family truckster for the LONG drive out to South Bend, Indiana tomorrow. My 3rd visit in the past eight months. To attend the most gut wrenching funeral ... for my dad's younger brother. A young man taken FAR too soon.

To say I'm in shock would be an understatement. Which is nothing compared to my aunt and my cousins. Or my father and the rest of his siblings. Our family has truly been blessed with living long lives ... I'm at a loss for words.

My uncle's passing, coupled with Sheridan's recovery from her tonsillectomy, adenoidectomy, and turbinate resection (also known as the week from hell), along with the bevy of workers who have traipsed through my house over the last week, have left me drained. Exhausted. Pooped. Sheridan had a hard week with the pain, the excessive vomiting, the nausea, not sleeping well, and the mom who's insisted she stay hydrated and medicated. There were moments that were quite difficult to bear ... for seeing your kid in that much agony is not easy.

We've had a busy summer. And Matt's absence has left me wearing many different hats ... such as sole parent, friend, schlepper, disciplinarian, maid, cook, shower giver, dishwasher emptier, laundry folder, play-date organizer, and toilet trainer extraordinaire. I've also been busy with the PTA, the softball team, the swim team, swim lessons, summer camp, hosting parents and in-laws and friends, working with the State Department, my Stella & Dot business, and attempting to not lose my marbles.

I tried ... but I just don't know if I succeeded.

If you have any extra bottles of energy, sanity, or clarity laying around, please forward them my way ASAP. I'll need them tomorrow as I make the 12+ hour drive. I'll want to pass them out to my family members as we cry and mourn together. Unlike my grandfather's passing just a few short months ago, these next few days won't be as easy.

My only saving grace in all of this insanity ... what is truly getting me through this awful, no good, very bad week ... is that early Monday morning (regardless of what time we get home on Sunday night) is the kids first day of school!! And you can bet your sweet bippy I'll be popping open a bottle of champagne at the bus stop.

After a summer like this ... I know I've earned it.

17 comments:

Robin said...

I'm so sorry. I'll be holding you and your family close in my heart.

Christy said...

You absolutely have. Wish I could help you!!! Hugs and prayers. Safe travels. xoxo

amy said...

Many Many hugs. It is rough to lose someone earlier than you wish. And on top of all the hats you are wearing, the dealing with eveything it is no wonder you are losing your marbles. It is okay to take a time out. Wish I was in the area to help you out.

Betsy said...

I am so very sorry for the loss of your uncle. Even before I read the last paragraph I was thinking Thank God school starts soon.

Praying you have a safe trip and get some much deserved rest next week.

Stephanie Smith Norberg said...

I hate it when my friends suffer. Love you girl. Drive safe and know that your uncle and grandpa are watching over you all <3<3 xoxo

Mom24 said...

I am in awe of your strength. I wish you didn't have to be so strong, but I know you're capable and doing a great job. Good luck with the next week.

Noble Glomads said...

You got this. Stay strong as we all know you are. Drive safely and I will join you here in NC for that champagne.

Pam@OurAdventuresInHomeImprovement said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Enjoy that champagne on Monday morning! :)

Have a safe trip and take care,
Pam

Just US said...

I am so sorry for your loss and will be praying for you and your family. You so do deserve that champagne first thing Monday morning!! And maybe a celebratory nap!!!

Delhibound said...

Just when I think you couldn't possibly add another thing to your list of hard things ...

Pack the vomit bags (!!!) and a bottle of wine. I'm sure you'll need both.

xo

Issas Crazy World said...

I'm so very sorry my friend. You all are in my thoughts and prayers today. I hope the trip is as uneventful as is possible with three kids in a car all day.

Much love to you my friend.

Connie said...

I am so sorry for your loss, and hope that your trip goes well. (as well as possible!) And yes. You HAVE succeeded. You made it through, right? You are looking forward to that first day of school and mom's reward, right? See. One day at a time. You are making it :) That IS success!

Becky said...

Thinking of you. I hope the trip went well and that your sweet girl is feeling better.

Kat said...

Oh, I am so sorry for your loss. It has been such a rough summer, you've really gone through it. Sending, hugs, best wishes, prayers and good thoughts, and any extra bits of sanity I have left, your way.

Life is a Zoo in the Jungle said...

So sorry for your loss. I hope you can find comfort in being with your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Headless Mom said...

I hope being with family is helping. XOXO

Yes, you do deserve some champagne!

Nomads By Nature said...

I am so sorry to hear about your uncle, but am glad you were able to make it to be with family, to comfort them and be comforted. Hoping your trip to Indiana was smooth and event free and that the kids have a great first day back. My prayers are with you.

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